Approximately one year ago I followed a link to a blog I read occasionally. The author was Jon Acuff. The blog post was looking for adventurers, all you had to do was fill in a quick form. I closed the window and tried to forget about it but it kept tugging at the back of my mind.
I was a few months into a new job and I was supposed to be happy. I was where God wanted me to be (I still believe that, by the way). But there was still this longing for something more. So I went back to the post and filled out the form, not realising how significant that small action would turn out to be. I soon found myself a part of something called ‘The Start Experiment’ (more recently reinvented as the ’30 days of Hustle’) an amazing online community with daily emails and encouragement to push you towards achieving your goals and seeing your dreams become reality.
One year on, my life is so different. I have left that job and am currently unemployed and living back with my parents, with very little in the way of concrete plans. But I have my dreams and the last year has taught me that they are worth fighting for. I am taking chances I never would have dreamed of a year ago. I have best friends who live the other side of the world whom I’ve never met but who feel like my sisters. I have bought a domain name and am starting to take myself seriously as a writer. This is the power of community.
My goal in that original Start Experiment was to see myself as a writer. As part of that experience I wrote the following poem, and posted it on a Facebook group of more than 3000 people. and they liked it.
Start
Sometime,
In a time before,
I was afraid
so I hid.
I thought I had
nothing to share
nothing to give
I thought I was
Nothing.
And I was afraid
that people would see
the nothing in me.
But now I know
what was really scaring me
was the simple idea
that I might be
Something.
That I might have
something to give
something to share
and it might be
Amazing.
But I’m afraid to be
the person I could be
if I let myself be me.
I am made
for better things
than I’ve settled for…
So I’m choosing
to let go
of the things I’m holding onto
that hold me back
And I’m choosing
not to be afraid
of where my dreams may lead me
and the person I could become
if I let myself believe
that the One who created me
Didn’t make a mistake
But saw me
and knew me
Even before I was made
And He filled me
Brim-full of potential
to be creative
for I am made in the image of Creator God
And He filled me
with a deep-set longing
to find Him – for in finding Him I find myself
This I now know
I need not fear
who I have been
or who I could be
Because I am loved
and there is no place for fear in love.