… is really a slotted spoon.
A few years ago I got to a point in my life where I was at a fork in the road. I was trying to decide what to do next in my life, and I seemed to have several equally good options to pick from.
My question was: what does God want me to do?
Around that time I read this passage in Psalm 19 (Message):
“The revelation of God is whole
and pulls our lives together.
The signposts of God are clear
and point out the right road.
The life maps of God are right
showing the way to joy.
The directions of God are plain
and easy on the eyes”
So I drew the first picture, and felt a lot happier because God was going to clearly show me which path He wanted me to take.
But He didn’t.
Instead He told me to choose…
The more I thought and prayed about it the more I felt God saying it was up to me what path I took.
A friend suggested that while God may have a “final destination” in His plan for me, I could take any number of routes to get there, more like the second picture and Isaiah 30v21 (NIV):
“Whether you turn to the right or the left,
Your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying,
‘This is the way.
Walk in it.”
It’s a few years down the line now, and I find myself in a similar position, although, somehow, with a lot less certainty that I’ll work out where I want to go. It’s hard not to feel that this last year I’ve been on a wrong path, as things haven’t really turned out the way I expected. But nothing in God’s kingdom is wasted and I know at the very least I’ve learnt a lot about myself and how to rely on God more.
Yet, it has been so comforting to come across these pictures and those passages again. I know that I am on a journey and that wherever I am going, God is not only going with me, but He is already preparing the way ahead of me.